"Life is but an empty dream" -Henry Wadsworth Longfellow
I have been experiencing this reoccurring dream these past few months. Truthfully I have many dreams that tend to cycle through every few weeks. They say that dreams sometimes have strong emotional content. It is very much in our subconscious that we think about things throughout out waking life, and can return to those thoughts in our deep sleep. Sometimes they messages are very vague but they affect us. For me specifically I feel the emotions when I wake up. I do wish I did not dream some of the things that I do, but I have a wondering mind. I guess in order to remove the unpleasant dreams, you must discard the thoughts provoking it. Easier said than done right?
My dream that has recently been bothersome has been based around a class like in highschool/college. Each time the class is different and the material is never specific. There is always something random going on the actual dream and I can't ever piece it together. In my dream I keep missing a class and forgetting to go to it. I get closer and closer to graduation and realize that I am not going to graduate because I haven't been attending this specific class. I don't go to the class because I do not understand the material and hate asking for help. This can very much translate to my real life in which sense I have never liked receiving help. I have worked very hard to get where I am and with very little help to get me here. Granted I am sure it was somewhat always there, I just never had enough in me to ask for it. This comes to my actual classes in school and also into my adult life living moving to Chicago and being in the circumstances I have been in. We all are very much to blame for certain scenarios we get into, especially when we don't know how to get out of them. I guess for me now, I have it stuck in my mind that I do not belong or don't feel accepted. I have always felt this way. I have always been an outside, quiet, and not very confident. It is hard to get out of, and of course I need to grow up in that sense. I guess I just don't always believe in myself especially when I do not feel that others believe in me. Besides of course my family, not feeling accepted has really always been a struggle for me. I have always had a extra sensitivity about my skin, and about how I can't seem to get ahead even when the effort is there. I have always put forth extra effort in to things in hopes that eventually they will pay off, and when they don't and there is still a struggle I find it immensely difficult to find the courage and strength to push harder and keep my head up. I don't really have any close friends anymore...I spend more time alone with my thoughts than speaking to others. The internet has really sort of ruined people's communication skills. Sure I use it a lot but I'd rather go for coffee with someone than have a Gchat or whatever. My dreams stem from my overall frustrations with my inability to be satisfied with my general life. I am afraid of change and not being appreciated or accepted. I guess I just feel I am worth more than I get sometimes. Truth be told, I am very much an introvert, but do appreciate attention and unconditional love or genuine friendship/relationships.
"A fool who recognises his own ignorance is thereby in fact a wise man, but a
fool who considers himself wise -- that is what one really calls a fool. -
Gautama Buddha"
I have been experiencing this reoccurring dream these past few months. Truthfully I have many dreams that tend to cycle through every few weeks. They say that dreams sometimes have strong emotional content. It is very much in our subconscious that we think about things throughout out waking life, and can return to those thoughts in our deep sleep. Sometimes they messages are very vague but they affect us. For me specifically I feel the emotions when I wake up. I do wish I did not dream some of the things that I do, but I have a wondering mind. I guess in order to remove the unpleasant dreams, you must discard the thoughts provoking it. Easier said than done right?
My dream that has recently been bothersome has been based around a class like in highschool/college. Each time the class is different and the material is never specific. There is always something random going on the actual dream and I can't ever piece it together. In my dream I keep missing a class and forgetting to go to it. I get closer and closer to graduation and realize that I am not going to graduate because I haven't been attending this specific class. I don't go to the class because I do not understand the material and hate asking for help. This can very much translate to my real life in which sense I have never liked receiving help. I have worked very hard to get where I am and with very little help to get me here. Granted I am sure it was somewhat always there, I just never had enough in me to ask for it. This comes to my actual classes in school and also into my adult life living moving to Chicago and being in the circumstances I have been in. We all are very much to blame for certain scenarios we get into, especially when we don't know how to get out of them. I guess for me now, I have it stuck in my mind that I do not belong or don't feel accepted. I have always felt this way. I have always been an outside, quiet, and not very confident. It is hard to get out of, and of course I need to grow up in that sense. I guess I just don't always believe in myself especially when I do not feel that others believe in me. Besides of course my family, not feeling accepted has really always been a struggle for me. I have always had a extra sensitivity about my skin, and about how I can't seem to get ahead even when the effort is there. I have always put forth extra effort in to things in hopes that eventually they will pay off, and when they don't and there is still a struggle I find it immensely difficult to find the courage and strength to push harder and keep my head up. I don't really have any close friends anymore...I spend more time alone with my thoughts than speaking to others. The internet has really sort of ruined people's communication skills. Sure I use it a lot but I'd rather go for coffee with someone than have a Gchat or whatever. My dreams stem from my overall frustrations with my inability to be satisfied with my general life. I am afraid of change and not being appreciated or accepted. I guess I just feel I am worth more than I get sometimes. Truth be told, I am very much an introvert, but do appreciate attention and unconditional love or genuine friendship/relationships.
"A fool who recognises his own ignorance is thereby in fact a wise man, but a
fool who considers himself wise -- that is what one really calls a fool. -
Gautama Buddha"
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