Fall is in full swing and I am sitting at home with my cats and the windows open. Thursdays are typically very slow for me so I spend most of the day cleaning. I can say that some things have definitely changed in my life, and I can't complain one bit. After getting back from the Olympia at the end of September, Mike and I came home to my cats and a new step in a great direction. I did not see life being at this point a few months ago, I honestly did not have very high hopes for the outcome of having to move from my last apartment.
I have lived in Logan Square since 2009, just 3 minutes or 2 blocks way from Mike. When we started dated I spent most of my time coming back and forth apartments, and further down the line I basically lived at his place and only went home to feed the cats and clean up a bit. So when I told my landlord that unless I could find a better situation I did not want to renew, and she agreed. Living with people can be very hard, especially when they do not share the same keep clean/be responsible values. I can't say I am a perfect person or that I have never struggled but I know I have always made sure that no matter how broke I might be, my rent always gets paid first. Hell this transition, going to Vegas right after a move, coming back to half a paycheck, and waiting for others to pay you really put me in a bind, but at least I know that its only temporary. But the idea of leaving Logan Square and even worse not getting to wake up next to Mike every day really pulled at my emotions. So I made my decision.
After all was said and done I am so glad for the change, but it was honestly a big decision. Officially moving in with your other half is a gigantic step, not to mention introducing my 2 cats to a new apartment and a reluctant boyfriend is quite a hard task. I was very nervous, still am. But I can tell you now that I wake up every day so happy, even when I have to be up at 6:00am three days a week. A weight has been lifted. Suddenly, all the things that stressed me before seem so insignificant. I say that in present, I sit here and I am not worried. I spent my day off cleaning and feeling good. (Despite being sick for what seems like weeks.) I can not complain, OK maybe about the fact that Bella and Magnolia (my 2 furry love kitties) have both decided to start meowing every single night and pawing at the door. Wow that is annoying. Training your cats to do everything opposite of what they were allowed to do for 7 years is a SLOW painful process. But all in good fun, they are a joy, a pain in the ass, and I love them so much. Just like Mike.
Past all that, I have been working some 20-25 hours now each week with all my clients. Some have stayed with me for a long time and some are new. I really love and appreciate the fact that I am able to work with and help people achieve their goals. You would think that most people care about aesthetics and I get that, but honestly I spend more time helping people feel better and stronger. To me there is nothing more satisfying than seeing a client look at you with the (are you really going to make me do this look) and then after they do it they are excited they accomplished something. It is great.
Modeling has also been really great. It seems to come in different phases. One minute I am just training/working out during my free time and the next I have a ton of jobs/shoots. It really is great that I still have the opportunities to live out my dreams. I am grateful to have a job that is flexible enough to still live my life outside of just one career path. I am a gemini after all. I need to do multiple things otherwise I will always feel uninspired.
I have a life, someone whom I love so deeply I can not even describe my happiness, and a great career path. Now I just have to watch how it all pans out.
<3
I have lived in Logan Square since 2009, just 3 minutes or 2 blocks way from Mike. When we started dated I spent most of my time coming back and forth apartments, and further down the line I basically lived at his place and only went home to feed the cats and clean up a bit. So when I told my landlord that unless I could find a better situation I did not want to renew, and she agreed. Living with people can be very hard, especially when they do not share the same keep clean/be responsible values. I can't say I am a perfect person or that I have never struggled but I know I have always made sure that no matter how broke I might be, my rent always gets paid first. Hell this transition, going to Vegas right after a move, coming back to half a paycheck, and waiting for others to pay you really put me in a bind, but at least I know that its only temporary. But the idea of leaving Logan Square and even worse not getting to wake up next to Mike every day really pulled at my emotions. So I made my decision.
After all was said and done I am so glad for the change, but it was honestly a big decision. Officially moving in with your other half is a gigantic step, not to mention introducing my 2 cats to a new apartment and a reluctant boyfriend is quite a hard task. I was very nervous, still am. But I can tell you now that I wake up every day so happy, even when I have to be up at 6:00am three days a week. A weight has been lifted. Suddenly, all the things that stressed me before seem so insignificant. I say that in present, I sit here and I am not worried. I spent my day off cleaning and feeling good. (Despite being sick for what seems like weeks.) I can not complain, OK maybe about the fact that Bella and Magnolia (my 2 furry love kitties) have both decided to start meowing every single night and pawing at the door. Wow that is annoying. Training your cats to do everything opposite of what they were allowed to do for 7 years is a SLOW painful process. But all in good fun, they are a joy, a pain in the ass, and I love them so much. Just like Mike.
Past all that, I have been working some 20-25 hours now each week with all my clients. Some have stayed with me for a long time and some are new. I really love and appreciate the fact that I am able to work with and help people achieve their goals. You would think that most people care about aesthetics and I get that, but honestly I spend more time helping people feel better and stronger. To me there is nothing more satisfying than seeing a client look at you with the (are you really going to make me do this look) and then after they do it they are excited they accomplished something. It is great.
Modeling has also been really great. It seems to come in different phases. One minute I am just training/working out during my free time and the next I have a ton of jobs/shoots. It really is great that I still have the opportunities to live out my dreams. I am grateful to have a job that is flexible enough to still live my life outside of just one career path. I am a gemini after all. I need to do multiple things otherwise I will always feel uninspired.
I have a life, someone whom I love so deeply I can not even describe my happiness, and a great career path. Now I just have to watch how it all pans out.
<3
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